Family. Photography. Fitness.

I know my posts are usually upbeat but let's be honest, sometimes we just aren't feeling it. The occasional curse word just takes care of that lol  Today I was just doing some research and taking inventory to see what this little kiwi is going need when they arrive. I dug out Savannah's infant carrier and wouldn't ya know, it expired in December. An expensive item we intentionally picked in neutral colors planning to re-use for future children.  It's sad to see her baby seat go but it's also sad because my late grandma bought that seat for us. She couldn't have been more thrilled to feel good enough to be at my shower (battling stage 4 pancreatic cancer) to give us this gift for her first great grand baby. So it's sentimental to me. I'm a bit of a hoarder in general but when it's something sentimental to me I just can't let go of it.  Just one more thing infertility decided to f*** up..  Of course also in my hormona

You may have noticed I have neglected my blog over the last month or so. Well, let me do some explaining. As the title states- it all started the day after Christmas. My mom came in town and we went to the grocery store to get a few things. For reasons I can't really explain, I was drawn down the pharmacy aisle like a moth to a flame.. Before I knew it I was tossing a Kroger brand pregnancy test into the cart.  Once we got home and unloaded the groceries I wandered upstairs to take the test. Within 3 minutes I noticed a faint barely visible blue line show up. Having been in the TTC/infertility land long enough, I knew that dye run on blue tests was a very real possibility.  So ran back out to get a pink dye first response test and a .88cent Walmart test. Came back home and took them all. First response- stark white. Not even a hint of a line. Irritated I walked away before even reading the wal mart test. When I went back to throw the tests away I noticed yet another