Life's tough. But you're tougher!
I've opened and closed this post probably a dozen times before I could finally form some kind of words. I sat here staring at the blinking curser on a stark white screen and I couldn't come up with any thing to type. My emotions were all over the place and I needed to sort it out on my own. So I'm just going to lay it out.. Our 3rd round was again, unsuccessful. Makes our 3rd failed cycle with treatments but, the 43rd negative since the beginning of this journey. A week ago I was stuck in the negativity. I asked myself what have I got out of this entire thing. A week ago- my answer was this: "What have I got out of this? 43 negatives. 3.5 years of heartache and disappointment. A miscarriage. Weight gain. Bruises from all the needles. Discomfort from all the probing and thousands of dollars thrown down the drain. That's what infertility has given me " That's not the attitude I wanted to have. Today while I sat back in my R